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I don't know if i'm fighting insecurity...or a gut feeling.
I feel like i'm being used, and like i'm being lied to. I feel like my eyes are seeing something that my heart won't let me confront. I just don't know anymore. I don't know if it's myself or others that i don't trust. I don't know if i'm reacting based on past experiences, or if i'm finally learning from my mistakes. I mean, i'm usually right about things...when something looks and feels a certain way....then that's usually what it is. Or so i've found to be true in the past. I try not to live in the past...but i'll be damned if im not gonna learn from it...i've learned some hard ass lessons that i sure as hell don't want to relive or relearn.